I started this blog a while ago because I was taking a journey in spirituality and I felt compelled to share it. I would try to talk to my friends about it, but they weren’t at the same place as me and they would listen politely and be supportive but didn’t really *get* it. And I didn’t need for them to get it but I just felt compelled to share.
I wrote a couple of small posts years ago now and just stopped. That’s what happens a lot with blogs and I was no exception. So, I’m starting fresh and I’m giving the regular writing another try.
Every day feels like an advancement in my spiritual journey. I go for walks and the thoughts about how to be and what to feel drift through my mind and it feels good. It’s a nice balance of letting go of my thoughts so that I can be fully in the moment and exploring ways to get to spirituality via the mind. The theme of my thoughts that tends surface is that my mind seems to be teaching someone a new lesson. I think about some problem that came up with a friend or maybe it’s just a random status update on Facebook or an article in the news and my mind always has a lesson for them. My mind is imagining the conversation where I tell them the ideal way of looking at the situation. I would never actually tell the people what I was imagining but the thoughts always come up.
Finally, after many many times of paying attention to these imaginary conversations I realized that I wasn’t going through a practise run of teaching other people how to be but I was teaching myself. In The Course of Miracles they say “to teach is to learn, so that teacher and learner are the same”. And that’s how I want to use this blog. I’m going to let go of the pressures to please my audience or even to get an audience. I’m going to let go of the presumption that I’m here to teach you and I’m just going to teach myself. Everything that I think that people need to do differently, I’m going to teach myself to simply do and be that.
A friend of mine was teaching a writing course recently. At first she was having trouble working out the course curriculum so she decided to make every class a lesson for herself. Whatever she felt was missing from her own writing knowledge (pertaining to the subject at hand) she incorporated into the class lessons. She designed the whole course to teach herself. In the end the students loved the course, she learned a lot and regained her confidence as a teacher.
With this blog I’m going to take the conversation in my head between me and whoever my mind is talking to, turn it into a lesson for myself and write about it. I hope we will all be able to learn from this written expression of my lessons in life towards the highest spiritual endeavor.