The purpose of this blog is simply to share with the readers my experience of individual spiritual realization. Everyday I contemplate the nature of reality. You could say it’s a philosophical perspective, and I do like to think of it that way, as well. But, it’s a philosophy of the spirit that functions in the physical realm. Sorting out, intellectually, what makes physical reality what it is can be tricky. I’m inclined to think of it in a predominantly subjective manner – how I experience reality as I experience it. But, one could also look through an objective lens and seek out the mechanism of reality as discovered by scientists over many centuries. The scientific discoveries and perspectives on the mechanism by which physical reality functions is interesting, for sure, but for myself, I don’t find it particularly relevant to my philosophical contemplations.
Another significant aspect to my contemplations is that I don’t focus too much on the how and why of other people’s experiences of life. Inevitably the more I know about the how and why of my own experience, the more I’ll know about others, in some regard. I can learn and understand some of many factors that can go into forming another experience. But, like the scientific mechanical process of matter, narrowing down factors of influence in another person’s experience simply isn’t relevant to my contemplations.
I’ve always been a thinker. I am Gemini after all. But, not specifically a scholar. My interest has tended towards the personal experience. I’ve been interested in personal development books since I was a teenager. And I loved the controversial Oprah topics of the 90s of creating your own reality, and the methodological studies of prayer and meditation. Growing up in the United Church I’ve always been exposed to minimally problematic perspectives of God and Spirit. But my spiritual explorations really began for me in 2007. One Googled question led to a blog, which led to another blog, which led to an author, and then a video and so on. It’s been the quintessential Internet-Age mystical journey. I started to study subjective reality, read Dr. David Hawkins, watched the Secret, looked deeper and deeper into the concept of the soul, God as immanent, deliberate creations, and listened to many many messages and perspective that claim a non-physical origin.
Six and half years later I’m still at it: still reading about spiritual perspectives; still listening to people claiming to be speaking from another realm; still wondering what I can do for myself to experience an improved reality – a life of joy, excitement, love, and bliss. It is my belief that the more of this joy and love that I experience, the more the world will experience. It is, in a sense, my mission from God – to feel good, everyday. I have a shirt that says, “I’m on a mission from God” and it has a drawing of a man with long hair and outstretched arms. I’m sure you can guess the implication of that image. And people always ask me, “what’s your mission?” My answer: To feel good.
All the information that I’m gathering about the nature of reality and the interconnectivity of the spirit and the physical body is fascinating me to no end. I’m developing new perspectives everyday. Not drastically different from “past” perspectives, but more developed, expanded viewpoints. And I love it. The one thing that keeps coming up, that I’m continually drawn to in my study is the significance of feeling good. Ultimately, that’s what people want from their lives. People say they want to “be happy”. That can be defined in all sorts of ways. But it’s the feeling of being happy that’s the key – the feeling of feeling good.
In my exploration of “the nature of reality” I get to look around me, use my observational functions and think about things that are actually beyond the capacity of the thinking mind. It’s incredibly fun. I hope to share more of these contemplations with you because they’re always changing and developing. And it’s super interesting to attempt to articulate concepts that are literally beyond the mind (analogies work well, but I have no doubt our words and concepts will develop with greater understanding). These days, this concept of feeling good is on my mind and surfaces in all sorts of sources. Different authors talk about it in different ways. People who seek happiness think about it in different ways. There is no one way. We are all having an individual experience. In your experience, as you walk on your own unique path, come upon your own significant clues, gather them up and move on, use your emotions as your guide. Move forward and see how it feels. If it’s not quite right, then change directions.
The image that flashed into my head as I wrote that was a person walking through a vast field of tall grass (I was born in the prairies). I imagined a game of sorts, like a video game. Try one way, pick up a clue – it feels good, then in my mind I pictured the field having depth beyond what we see as the earth’s surface. Upon feeling good the person’s path becomes elevated and the things that you find upon that path will be completely different at this level than at another level. Moving forward, always moving forward, the player will either stay at that level, go even higher, or more likely direct their focus toward observing unwanted things, succumb to old thought patterns and sink back down to the lower level where they will come upon a while new set of possible circumstances. It’s all okay, of course. It all leads you somewhere. Somewhere new and somewhere with a whole new set of choices. We get to choose and move on. That’s the game.
There you go. That was me contemplating the nature of reality, as a video game. Sometimes that’s how my mind works. I’m delighted to share it with you. Please feel free to share your own unique perspective in the comments section.